October is national pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. The 15th is set aside for a day of remembrance. A day to remember all of our babies taken way too soon.
The baby loss community comes together across the world to create a wave of light on this day each year... a wave for our babies. At 7:00 pm, in your respective time zone, you are asked to simply light a candle and let it burn for one hour... that's it. This one hour creates a wave of light, from time zone to time zone, around the world.
Day 15 is supposed to be a photo of the wave of light. My photo didn't come out that great, so I asked a dear friend if I could use hers, she said yes, let me tell you about my friend.
Late in 2009, I joined an online group called April 2010 Expecting Club, we were all pregnant with babies that were due in April 2010. There were over 100 women that came together to enjoy our pregnancies. We complained about morning sickness together, cried about hormones together, found out "boy/girl/surprise" together, we were there for each other, and soon enough we started sharing our birth stories together, we were there for each other. I had no idea that I would go through so much with these women.
In January we prayed together when our first "Dew Drop" was born so early, in February we cried together when one of our "Dew Drops" lost his daddy before he was even born, in March we cried together as two of our "Dew Drops" passed away.
One of these women and I had no idea just how much we would go through together. Sabrina's baby girl was due 2 weeks before my surprise was due. On March 25, 2010 I woke up sick and would spend the next 24 hours going through the worst experience in my life as I learned I had sudden severe preeclampsia and would have my baby that evening. Except, my baby didn't make it to that evening, I was sick, my baby died, I still had to give birth, and I hadn't even been able to tell my friends yet.
When I was able, I got on my computer and typed out my birth story "Landon's birth story - RIP baby". I wrote the story out in notepad because I didn't want to see the happy birth stories, I didn't want to be reminded of such joy when mine had been ripped from me. When I finally logged on to let my friends know that Landon was born and had passed away, there was a new birth story that had just been posted, my friend Sabrina had given birth to her sweet baby girl on March 25, her birth story "RIP princess Kylee"... our babies came together and our babies left together.
Landon and Kylee, an angel's bff. We had both given birth, two mommas with new babies, two babies that never took one breath, two mommas with broken hearts, crushed dreams, two mommas lost.
Sabrina and I fell into the baby loss hole together and we've been climbing out together for the past two and a half years. We feel our babies are best friends in heaven.
Sabrina has a special pink candle for Kylee and a blue candle for Landon. Each year she lights these candles for their birthdays and for the wave of light. This year, she set up a wonderful candle display for the wave of light, Kylee's candle, Landon's candle, and several other candles, and if I'm not mistaken, that little teddy bear in the middle holds Kylee.
I love you Sabrina, I know that Kylee and Landon are together, and even if we are never able to get together on this side, I'm sure they'll bring us together on the flip side! <3
