Day 12: Scents

Day 12 is supposed to be scents. After thinking long and hard for any scents that remind me of my baby, I came up empty. The normal scents you would think would remind me of my son do not. Baby powder, baby lotion, diapers, wipes, none of these remind me of Landon because I never got to experience any of these things with Landon. I never got to change his diaper, I never got to wipe his butt, I never got to put baby powder on him, I never got to put baby lotion on him. I never got to experience any of these things with my son.

Since I don't have any scents that remind me of Landon, I decided to change day 12 to "community support". There are many baby loss moms that have used their loss to help others. I will not even try to name them all as I will surely forget at least one. Instead, I will talk about my very favorite, Molly Bears. You can visit their website at www.mollybears.com and see what they are all about. My friend Bridget, who I met through the baby loss community, lost her daughter 2 months after I lost my son, you can read her story here... http://www.mollybears.com/our-story/molly-bears-story
My Molly Bear Landon was one of the bears Bridget made when she was just starting out, I think he was her 6th bear. I am so grateful for my bear. He weighs 4lb 12oz, just like my Landon weighed. On those dark nights when you need to hold your baby but can't, holding the weight of your baby fills those empty arms.

Molly Bears works off donations to put bears in the arms of thousands of broken hearted mommas. If you would like to donate to Molly Bears there is a donation link of their website. I would be so thankful if you donated in memory of my son Landon so that another mom can have a bear to fill her aching empty nights.

After Landon died, I spent all my time lying on the couch, my arm stretched out pushing an empty swing. When I got my Molly Bear Landon, he sat in that empty swing. He filled part of a void and I am so thankful for wonderful friends like Bridget. Here is a picture of my Molly Bear Landon sitting in the swing...